Last week I was reading a book about God and how He is the God who sees us. (The lady writing the book had been reading about how Hagar had been the first to call God the God who sees me when she was escaping Sarai and God heard her cries. ) This lady found herself asking God to show her in some way that He saw her every need, truly saw HER as she was searching for some lip balm in her purse. She offhandedly said she could sure use some lip balm. If I remember it correctly when she got back to her desk someone had left her a gift of lip balm. Every time she gets lip balm now it is a reminder to her that God saw even that small need, He truly sees HER personally.
Of course after reading this I was thinking how very special that was and asking God could He not show me somehow really cool like that. The internal dialog went something like this.....
Me-That is just too special, I would so love something similar that would say just to me how much you love me and see my needs.
God began reminding me of the stars and the many things He had taught me about His love with them and the doves that come to me during my prayer times and watch me, they even hatched their babies right by the gate in the cactus.
Me-Yes but those are there all the time and could just be coincidences.
God reminded me His love was just like that...there all the time and there are NO coincidences.
Me-forgive me Lord, you are so right and those things are so very special to me and do remind me of your love and teach me so much. I do love you so very much, thank you!
Fast forward to the next day. Brian asked me to go watch a movie with him that was very very loud and action packed. We both enjoyed the movie a lot but I was very much looking forward to some quiet time when we left. Brian wanted to go to Walmart first. Oh dear...I do hate going to Walmart! I tend to feel the emotions of folks around me and I am telling you right now there are NOT many happy people in Walmart! to say the least I was definitely overstimulated and craving quiet time by the time we left Walmart. Brian asked if I would like to go the back way or the freeway going home. I told him the least traffic way! As we started down one of the dirt roads going the back way home my mouth dropped open. The road was absolutely covered with doves!! I am not exaggerating when I say this. Brian actually had to slow way down to keep from hitting any of them. Suddenly I felt as if I was immersed in God's love and every bit of anxiety and craving for quiet time left me. I felt as if God was asking me what I thought of this lil "coincidence" as He laughed and reminded me that seeing doves was definitely still one of His ways of telling me He sees me. What an amazing God He is!! I am so very blessed!
